Sorrow

"The Day God Called You Home"
God looked around His garden and saw an empty space,
Then He looked down upon this earth, and saw your loving face.
He put his arms around you, and lifted you to rest,
His garden must have been beautiful,
He always takes the best.
He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain,
And knew that you would never get well on this earth again.
He saw your path was difficult, He closed your tired eyes,
He whispered "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly...


The boy that was in the hospital died the day before yesterday. I came home this weekend to go to his funeral. It's unreal. Students don't die. Kids I've worked with for years don't die. He was only 15; he had years and years ahead of him yet. It's not fair, and I don't know how to cope with emotional stuff very well. I think my history speaks for that. I'm pretty sure it hasn't really sunk in yet. That will all change after the wake tomorrow. I keep seeing these images of him in my mind, and they make me smile and want to laugh, and I can't wait to see him.... and then I remember. He was such a sweet kid. Loved the Red Sox, loved to laugh... he had the greatest smile, and when he really laughed... it was just too great. It would completely make your day, no matter how bad everything else in your life was, he could cheer you up. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for not spending more time in the room this past break. I promised I would, but I never got the chance. I know there was nothing I could have done, then or now, but I never really got to say goodbye. How do you deal with something like that?

I don't know how the teachers are going to break the news to the other students. I'm pretty sure that none of them will understand, but you can't just have a student leave the class and not explain what happened. I do not envy the teachers' job right now.

Don't take life for granted. You never know when fate will tear your heart up.

M.B.,you were taken from us much too early, and we will always miss you. We love you.

I'll Be There
Daddy Please don't look so sad, Momma please don't cry
"Cause I am in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies
Please, try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you, and then He changed His mind.

You see, I am a Special child, and I'm needed up above.
I'm the Special gift you gave Him, the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, and watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that's gleaming, That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your window pane.
That's me,in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows.
That's me, I'll be there, planting a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing, and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there Giving your heart a hug.
So daddy, please don't look so sad, momma don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus, and He sings me lullabies.