Musings to Music

Keith Urban: Tonight I Wanna Cry

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Alone in this house again tonight

I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine

Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me

The way that it was and should have been surrounds me

I'll never get over you walkin' away.

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Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with my pride

Let it fall like rain, from my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry.

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Would it help if i turned a sad song on

"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better

But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

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Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with my pride

Let it fall like rain, from my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry.

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Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with this pride

Let it fall like rain, from my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry.

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I've loved that song from the first time I heard it because I think it pretty much describes me perfectly. I may have actually posted it before, I tend to listen to it when...well, yea. I tend to listen to it when I need to.

It's funny, in roughly an 18 hour span I had three of my favorite guys come to me for advice (which I was more than happy to give), and I felt like the biggest hypocrite doing it. The one who I should have been able to help the most was the most ironic, because my advice to help him out is some that I adamently refuse to take myself.

I think we're gearing up for a very rough second half of a semester, but only time will tell. The real test will be to see if I'm smart enough to ask for support when I need it...

**DON'T LOSE HOPE. WHEN IT GETS DARKEST,

THE STARS COME OUT***