Right Here

Staind - Right Here
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as I can take
And you're so independent you just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away
I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment

I'm willing to bleed for you

I needed fulfillment

I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me

I don't want to relive all the mistakes

I've made along the way

But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting

I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But i always find a way

To keep you right here waiting

I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting

You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting

And if I chose to walk away would you still be right here waiting

Searching for the things to say

To keep me right here waiting

Apparently Staind is a good band to listen to when I get into one of these bummed out moods. As stupid and cliche as it sounds, I can relate to the words of their songs. Who knows why, but its the truth. Same with Papa Roach, but many of those lyrics are more literal than figurative for me.

Last night I was talking to probably my favorite and best guy friend in the world, and he was telling me that yes, he worries about me, but that you can't save a person from themself. His analogy was that people are like good New Year's parties - you let people do what they will, and all you can do is be around to clean up the mess afterward. Not overly eloquent, but it really hit home (and I gave him a break, it was 1:30 in the morning). He made me address something else, too. I told him that the one thing I really, really miss about having a boyfriend is having that someone there to tell me and show me that they love me. He asked me if that was really what I missed, or if I just missed knowing that someone cared and having them show it. He should be a damned psychologist - he knows what he's doing (he's known me long enough, I guess he has to be a bit of a psychologist for sticking by me all this time). He was right. I know my friends care, but we're not an overly touchy group of people. I need reinforcement - I need to know that people are around and give a damn about me, and I need them to show it. I never thought I was a needy person, but I guess I am. Maybe it's because my family isn't really very huggy anymore, but I grew up with it, and it makes me feel better. Whatever, I don't even know anymore. I do know that I seriously need to spend more time with little kids, because they can make me feel better no matter what. Good thing my "neice" and "nephew" are coming by today. They are the cutest and most well behaved little kids I've been around in a while. yay!