Agh, my life is inordinately stressful right now! I have 5 papers due in the next two weeks (3 of them for one class. But let's not get me started on THAT particular professor...) Not to mention the fact that there's a campus-wide event tomorrow that we've been planning for months, and it's supposed to rain, and I can almost guarentee that my dorm isn't going to participate which is going to make me look like crap. Agh. I just want to go back to WW and hang out with my friends and forget the amount of work that has to get done between now and then. I'm gonna be working all summer, which will keep my mind off of less than desirable things. And I'll hopefully get to see my bestest buds before we all get too busy... being a grown up SUCKS! Like, a lot. Seriously, this much stress can not possibly be healthy. :-/

There isn't even a bright side to anything anymore because the sun went away! WTF?!?!

And the situation with my friend got worse, even though he was trying to fix it. Woot woot more stress for my already fully stressed life!

I kinda wish the sun would come back. Somehow, all of this stress wasn't quite as stressful when it was sunny...

I realize that none of this is making sense, but it feels good to vent. All of my friends are in the same boat as me, so there's no point in complaining to them.

Whoa, hold the phone, just realized there is a bright side, sort of. My best friend in the world is turning 21 in a few weeks. Finally, I found a bright side to the end of this semester! GO ME!!! :-)

Bah, I have to go deal with the last minute planning of this thing... and write 5 papers. AND I was supposed to go to a friends school to celebrate their birthday but I couldn't go because I have to be back early tomorrow and we had no way of getting back early, so I couldn't go. This isn't making sense really anymore, so I'm gonna go pretend to be a grown up.... :-(

My Mood PERFECTLY

Alanis Morissette - I'm a Bitch

I hate the world today

You're so good to me

I know but I can't change

Tried to tell you

But you look at me like maybe

I'm an angel underneath

Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried

Must have been relieved to see

The softer side

I can understand how you'd be so confused

I don't envy you

I'm a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When I start to make you nervous

And I'm going to extremes

Tomorrow I will change

And today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think, you got me figured out

The season's already changing

I think it's cool, you do what you do

And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease

I'm a goddess on my knees

When you hurt, when you suffer

I'm your angel undercover

I've been numb, I'm revived

Can't say I'm not alive

You know I wouldn't want it any other way

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That song gets more true every time I listen to it. It's also my new favorite song, haha. Seriously though, I have been called a bitch too many times to count. Sometimes for no reason, sometimes for a very good reason.

This time though, the insinuated "bitch" was for NO reason.

My best (guy) friend's girlfriend apparently was never informed that the said best friend is just that, and has taken issue with me calling him "hun". Yea, I get that she's an insecure and immature high school senior, but still. My guy friend is the most loyal person in the world, and on top of that has no "feelings" for me whatsover, so I dont know what this little girl is so worried about. He has been my lifeline more than once, and no little miss priss is going to tell me how to talk to him. If he had said something, I would have been more than happy to comply. But no, she's going to try to be all tough (on Facebook no less) and tell me to back off. WTF? Unbelievable. What does she think I'm going to do, confront her on Facebook? Who does that, honestly. It's so stupid that it's funny.

The choices people make sometimes...

*On another note I'm not in the greatest of moods today despite the beautious weather. Actually I was quite crabby. Either its end of the year junk or something more, but which ever it is I would rather it not be here at all. Kinda just want to go see my hometown loves and chill for a bit, get all the stupidness of (girl) people out of my head for a while and just be with friends. 3 weeks to go and it's all set, but 3 weeks is so long!

Music for the heart

*N SYNC and Gloria Estefan

"Music of my Heart"

You'll never know

What you've done for me

What your faith in me

Has done for my soul...

You'll never know

The gift you've given me..

I'll carry it with me (yeah...yeah...)

Through the days ahead

I think of days before

You made me hope for something better (yes you did)

And made me reach for something more

You taught me to run

You taught me to fly

Helped me to free the me inside

Help me hear the music of my heart

Help me hear the music of my heart

You've opened my eyes

You've opened the door

To something I've never known before

And your love...(love)

Is the music of my heart.. (music of my heart)

You were the one

Always on my side (always on my side)

Always standing by (always standing by)

Seeing me through

You were the song that always made me sing

I'm singing this for you (singing this for you baby)

Everywhere I go

I think of where I've been (think of where I've been)

And of the one who knew me better

Than anyone ever will again

You taught me to run

You taught me to fly

Helped me to free the me inside

Help me hear the music of my heart

Help me hear the music of my heart

You've opened my eyes

You've opened the door (you opened the door)

To something I've never known before...

And your love...(your love)

Is the music of my heart

What you taught me

Only your love could ever teach me

You got through when no one could reach me

Ohh...ohh...ohh

Cause you always saw in me

All the best that I could be

It was you who set me free...

You taught me to run

You taught me to fly

Helped me to free the me inside (me inside)

Help me hear the music of my heart

Help me hear the music of my heart

You taught me to run

You taught me to fly

Helped me to free the me inside (me inside)

Help me hear the music of my heart (music of my heart)

Help me hear the music of my heart

You've opened my eyes

You've opened the door (opened the door)

To something I've never known before (never, never, felt before)

And your love...

Is the music of my heart...

Music of my heart

Music of my heart

Is the music of my heart...

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Wow, that'll bring ya back, huh? I finally found it last night after searching for it for years. We sang it when I was in middle school (not that I wasn't in love with it before that). That's a song that can bring back some memories worth smiling about...and we all know how important it is to smile! LoL it also makes me realize how much of a nerd I am for being so in love with 90's pop music. :)

Between the old sappy love songs and the fact that the SUN HAS RETURNED, I'm in a pretty good mood. And I get to go out to see some friends tonight, which I haven't done in a long while, so I'm pumped. Of course, that involves me pushing the thoughts of final papers and such out of my mind.... but I'm good with that.

Happy Day of Sunshine (FINALLY)

When She Cries: Restless Heart

The road I have traveled on,

Is paved with good intentions.

It's littered with broken dreams,

That never quite came true.

When all of my hopes were dying,

Her love kept me trying.

She does her best to hide,

The pain that she's been through.

When she cries, at night,

And she doesn't think that I can hear her.

She tries, to hide,

All the fear she feels inside.

So I pray, this time,

I can be the man that she deserves.

'Cos I die a little each time,

When she cries.

She's always been there for me,

Whenever I've fallen.

When nobody else believes,

She'll be there by my side.

I don't know how she takes it,

Just once,

I'd like to make it,

Then there'll be tears of joy,

That fill her lovin' eyes.

When she cries, at night,

And she doesn't think that I can hear her.

She tries, to hide,

All the fear she feels inside.

So I pray, this time,

I can be the man that she deserves.

'Cos I die a little each time,

When she cries.

So I pray, this time,

I can be the man that she deserves.

'Cos I die a little each time,

When she cries

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They Asked About You - Reba McEntire

Saturday night

Out on the town

Feeling so sure of myself

Meeting some friends

Sharing some laughs

Not thinking of anything else

Then one of them leaned over my shoulder

And all at once the party was over

They asked about you

And suddenly it all came back to me

Then all the walls around my heart

Came crashing at my feet

When they asked about you(oh) they asked about you

I was doing ok

Until they asked about you

How could they know

What it would do

All they did was mention your name

And just like that

The hurting was back

Thats when I knew nothing had changed

What a time for old memories to find me

Just when I thought I'd put em behind me

They asked about you

And suddenly it all came back to me

Then all the walls around my heart

Came crashing at my feet

When they asked about you(oh) they asked about you

I was doing ok

Until they asked about you....

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No particular reason, I've been feeling a little blech lately. Luckily I have friends who care, but with it being the end of the semester we're all busy. Not sure what I'm doing this summer.... there's just so much stress, and it's going to be a long, lonely, stupidly boring summer. That's my humble opinion anyway. :-/ I'll be aight, I always am, right?