"I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it everyday.

I couldn't help her

I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

Whats wrong, whats wrong now

Too many, too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs...

Her feelings she hides

Her dreams she can't find

She's losing her mind

She's falling behind

She can't find her place

She's losing her faith

She's fallen from grace

She's all over the place"

Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne

I love my friends, I do, but they don't understand. This song is how I feel every freakin day. I know they meant well, but it didn't help. If anything, it made things worse. I know you want to see me happy, don't we all. Happy is not my baseline. Nervous, anxious, slightly depressed - that's my baseline. I would LOVE to wake up one day happy, but I don't foresee it anytime soon. I have good friends, and I'm glad I have them, but until you've been where I am, you can't tell me how to feel. I mean really, it's just not possible. I know I make bad choices, don't we all? Allow me to have my vices. Someday I'll outgrow them. At least that's what I tell myself.

Also, Keith Urban "Nobody Drinks Alone" - fabulous song.