New Year

"You will bring beauty from my pain"

That's a lyric from a song I really like, although the song is kind of depressing SO perhaps I shouldn't listen to it, lol.

Hm, so, my life. Well, I started out the year chatting with a few good friends of mine, which was fantastic. I haven't talked to one of them all summer, so catching up was amazing. On that note, I finally turned to a friend of mine here, and I am cautiously optimistic. I'm still anxious, but not as bad as I usually am when it comes to telling people. I suppose that's good? Sure. We'll go with that. One more person to let down, but maybe I won't.

I am suddenly feeling very down though, which is odd because it is GORGEOUS outside, and I'm listening to some of my new favorite songs (Rihanna mostly). But I guess it happens, I'll just have to deal. It's all the stress from this semester already - which I know doesn't bode well, but I think once I get into the swing of things I'll be fine. I'm hoping that it's just the anticipatory stress. Either that or it's backlash from this summer, which makes me nervous. Like, very nervous. I shouldn't dwell on it, I know, but I go on the theory that by anticipating these issues I can head them off at the pass, lol. Notice how that never works? Guess I need a new theory.